{"id":721,"date":"2009-09-15T20:55:29","date_gmt":"2009-09-15T18:55:29","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/?p=721"},"modified":"2014-04-18T00:12:56","modified_gmt":"2014-04-17T22:12:56","slug":"sorg","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/index.php\/2009\/09\/15\/sorg\/","title":{"rendered":"Sorg"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" width=\"420\" height=\"315\" src=\"\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/yfg97-5uhFQ\" frameborder=\"0\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p>En av min barndoms\/ton\u00e5rstids stora favoriter finns inte l\u00e4ngre. Patrick Swayze har f\u00f6rlorat kampen mot cancern. Mina tankar g\u00e5r till hans fru som har f\u00f6rlorat sin livs k\u00e4rlek, de gifte sig redan 1975. Undrar om man n\u00e5gonsin f\u00e5r uppleva en s\u00e5dan k\u00e4rlek&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Mitt favoritminne av Patrick var n\u00e4r jag och syrran var och s\u00e5g Dirty Dancing p\u00e5 bio. Min syster var d\u00e5 gravid med sin \u00e4ldsta dotter som sparkade i takt med musiken. Favoritscenen fr\u00e5n filmen \u00e4r inte n\u00e5gon dans med Baby utan n\u00e4r Johnny dansar mambo med den kvinnliga dansl\u00e4raren. (Hittade ett <a href=\"http:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=BSaC8X7oNiA\" rel=\"nobox\">klipp<\/a>.)<\/p>\n<p>Precis som <a href=\"http:\/\/www.lalinda.se\/?p=7223\" >Linda<\/a> s\u00e5g jag honom lite som en fadersfigur. Det var en tid d\u00e5 jag s\u00e5g mig som f\u00f6r\u00e4ldral\u00f6s fast b\u00e5da mina f\u00f6r\u00e4ldrar var i livet. Min mor hade inte \u00e4nnu kastat ut mig och sagt att hon aldrig ville se mig mer, hon tryckte ner mig p\u00e5 andra s\u00e4tt och min far hade sina problem som gjorde att jag bara ville fly fr\u00e5n verkligheten. Dr\u00f6mde g\u00e4rna om andra f\u00f6r\u00e4ldrar och d\u00e5 ibland Patrick och hans fru Lisa. F\u00e5niga tankar men som h\u00f6ll mig vid liv.<\/p>\n<p>Han lider inte l\u00e4ngre i alla fall&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p class=\"excerpt\">En av min barndoms\/ton\u00e5rstids stora favoriter finns inte l\u00e4ngre. Patrick Swayze har f\u00f6rlorat kampen mot cancern. Mina tankar g\u00e5r till hans fru som har f\u00f6rlorat sin livs k\u00e4rlek, de gifte sig redan 1975. Undrar om man n\u00e5gonsin f\u00e5r uppleva en s\u00e5dan k\u00e4rlek&#8230; Mitt favoritminne av Patrick var n\u00e4r jag och syrran var och s\u00e5g Dirty Dancing p\u00e5 bio. Min syster&hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/index.php\/2009\/09\/15\/sorg\/\">Read more &rarr;<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[1],"tags":[44,97],"class_list":["post-721","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-blandat","tag-favoriter","tag-sorg","xfolkentry"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/s23rAr-sorg","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":1281,"url":"https:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/index.php\/2010\/12\/03\/dag-3-mina-foraldrar\/","url_meta":{"origin":721,"position":0},"title":"Dag 3: Mina f\u00f6r\u00e4ldrar","author":"Maria","date":"03 december 2010, 23:30","format":false,"excerpt":"Ja, var ska man b\u00f6rja egentligen. 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