{"id":2370,"date":"2013-01-31T19:39:50","date_gmt":"2013-01-31T18:39:50","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/?p=2370"},"modified":"2013-02-01T18:07:18","modified_gmt":"2013-02-01T17:07:18","slug":"den-fula-avundsjukan","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/index.php\/2013\/01\/31\/den-fula-avundsjukan\/","title":{"rendered":"Den fula avundsjukan"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Ibland sl\u00e5r den till, den d\u00e4r avundsjukan som jag inte \u00e4r stolt \u00f6ver. Den d\u00e4r fula. Den som man inte pratar om. Den som jag f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker d\u00f6lja de g\u00e5nger den dyker upp. <\/p>\n<p>Avundsjukan n\u00e4r n\u00e5gon annan \u00e4r gravid. <\/p>\n<p>Ig\u00e5r n\u00e4r jag som vanligt kollade igenom aktiviteten p\u00e5 Instagram slog den till med full kraft. Jag kunde inte ens t\u00e4nka att jag \u00f6nskade att jag <em>ocks\u00e5<\/em> var gravid. Det var bara jag, jag, jag. Varf\u00f6r \u00e4r inte JAG gravid! <\/p>\n<p>Jag sk\u00e4ms n\u00e4r jag t\u00e4nker p\u00e5 det i efterhand. Sorgen och sm\u00e4rtan \u00f6ver vetskapen att det aldrig kommer vara jag som stoltserar med min mage p\u00e5 ett foto p\u00e5 Instagram g\u00e5r inte att beskriva. Men. Jag borde inte bli avundsam f\u00f6r det. Det \u00e4r inte r\u00e4tt. <\/p>\n<p>Tjejen p\u00e5 fotot \u00e4r verkligen n\u00e5gon jag \u00e4r uppriktigt glad f\u00f6r att hon \u00e4ntligen har tr\u00e4ffat n\u00e5gon, \u00e4ntligen blivit med barn. Hon \u00e4r en gammal klasskompis, allts\u00e5 i samma \u00e5lder. S\u00e5 egentligen \u00e4r jag glad. Men avundsjukan, ibland sl\u00e5r den till fast man inte vill. <\/p>\n<p>Samtidigt har jag en annan gammal klasskompis som f\u00f6r tillf\u00e4llet g\u00e5r igenom hormonbehandling f\u00f6r att plocka ut \u00e4gg innan hon ska b\u00f6rja med cellgifter. S\u00e5 olika situationer, den ena gl\u00e4djefull, den andra bara hemsk. T\u00e4nker p\u00e5 dig, S, jag hoppas du vet det&#8230;trots att jag \u00e4r en s\u00e5n d\u00e5lig v\u00e4n, men det \u00e4r jag \u00e5 andra sidan st\u00f6rre delen av tiden. (Vi f\u00e5r se till att boka in ett bes\u00f6k till dig n\u00e5n g\u00e5ng n\u00e4r det passar. Om du vill f\u00f6rst\u00e5s.)<\/p>\n<p><em>Nr 9 av #blogg100<\/em><\/p>\n<div class=\"sharedaddy sd-sharing-enabled\"><div class=\"robots-nocontent sd-block sd-social sd-social-icon sd-sharing\"><h3 class=\"sd-title\">Dela:<\/h3><div class=\"sd-content\"><ul><li class=\"share-twitter\"><a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" data-shared=\"sharing-twitter-2370\" class=\"share-twitter sd-button share-icon no-text\" href=\"https:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/index.php\/2013\/01\/31\/den-fula-avundsjukan\/?share=twitter\" target=\"_blank\" title=\"Klicka f\u00f6r att dela p\u00e5 Twitter\"><span><\/span><span class=\"sharing-screen-reader-text\">Klicka f\u00f6r att dela p\u00e5 Twitter (\u00d6ppnas i ett nytt f\u00f6nster)<\/span><\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-print\"><a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" data-shared=\"\" class=\"share-print sd-button share-icon no-text\" href=\"https:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/index.php\/2013\/01\/31\/den-fula-avundsjukan\/\" target=\"_blank\" title=\"Klicka f\u00f6r utskrift\"><span><\/span><span class=\"sharing-screen-reader-text\">Klicka f\u00f6r utskrift (\u00d6ppnas i ett nytt f\u00f6nster)<\/span><\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-pinterest\"><a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" data-shared=\"sharing-pinterest-2370\" class=\"share-pinterest sd-button share-icon no-text\" href=\"https:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/index.php\/2013\/01\/31\/den-fula-avundsjukan\/?share=pinterest\" target=\"_blank\" title=\"Klicka f\u00f6r att dela till Pinterest\"><span><\/span><span class=\"sharing-screen-reader-text\">Klicka f\u00f6r att dela till Pinterest (\u00d6ppnas i ett nytt f\u00f6nster)<\/span><\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-end\"><\/li><\/ul><\/div><\/div><\/div>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p class=\"excerpt\">Ibland sl\u00e5r den till, den d\u00e4r avundsjukan som jag inte \u00e4r stolt \u00f6ver. Den d\u00e4r fula. Den som man inte pratar om. Den som jag f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker d\u00f6lja de g\u00e5nger den dyker upp. Avundsjukan n\u00e4r n\u00e5gon annan \u00e4r gravid. Ig\u00e5r n\u00e4r jag som vanligt kollade igenom aktiviteten p\u00e5 Instagram slog den till med full kraft. 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