{"id":2129,"date":"2012-11-10T13:43:49","date_gmt":"2012-11-10T12:43:49","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/?p=2129"},"modified":"2012-11-10T14:04:06","modified_gmt":"2012-11-10T13:04:06","slug":"hormone","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/index.php\/2012\/11\/10\/hormone\/","title":{"rendered":"Hormoner som somnat"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Ig\u00e5r p\u00e5 jobbet fick jag h\u00f6ra ett samtal mellan narkospersonalen p\u00e5 en sal, jag kom in mitt i s\u00e5 jag vet inte hur det b\u00f6rjade. N\u00e5gon hade i alla fall varit och bes\u00f6kt n\u00e5gon som precis f\u00e5tt barn och avslutade en mening med att hennes hormoner v\u00e4cktes dock inte, hon skulle inte kunna t\u00e4nka sig fler barn. Personen i fr\u00e5ga var n\u00e5gonstans i min \u00e5lder och det fick mig genast att t\u00e4nka p\u00e5 mina hormoner. Har de somnat? V\u00e4cks de av bebisar nu f\u00f6r tiden?<\/p>\n<p>Det var l\u00e4nge sedan jag accepterade att jag aldrig kommer bli gravid, f\u00e5 barn, bli mamma. D\u00e5 och d\u00e5 har dock min hj\u00e4rna v\u00e4ckt ett dumt hopp, men med \u00e5ren har detta hopp blivit svagare och svagare de g\u00e5nger det har kommit till ytan. Jag blir ju inte yngre precis, \u00e5ren g\u00e5r och om en m\u00e5nad blir jag 37. Jag var 29 \u00e5r d\u00e5 jag och exmannen slutade att f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka, jag var 32 d\u00e5 jag blev spontant gravid men fick missfall. Och nu allts\u00e5, snart 37 \u00e5r.<\/p>\n<p>Men v\u00e4cks mina hormoner? Svar ja, men jag trycker ner dem i s\u00f6mnen igen. F\u00f6r jag vet att jag aldrig kommer bli (biologisk) mamma till n\u00e5gon. Fast mina hormoner \u00e4r ju vakna hela tiden, vilket de aldrig l\u00e5ter mig gl\u00f6mma. \u00c5tminstone inte m\u00e5nga dagar \u00e5t g\u00e5ngen. De visar att de finns genom att jag bl\u00f6der. Och bl\u00f6der. Och bl\u00f6der lite mer. Av den anledningen har jag best\u00e4mt mig, den ska bort. Livmodern allts\u00e5. M\u00e5ste bara f\u00e5 en doktor att g\u00e5 med p\u00e5 det f\u00f6rst. F\u00f6r jag \u00e4r ju fortfarande fertil. De har missat en liten detalj, jag kan ju inte bli med barn.<\/p>\n<p>F\u00f6rra \u00e5ret var hemskt n\u00e4r det kom till antalet dagar d\u00e5 jag bl\u00f6dde, i \u00e5r \u00e4r det \u00e5tminstone lite b\u00e4ttre. Inga st\u00f6rtbl\u00f6dningar i alla fall, vilket jag kan tacka hormonspiralen f\u00f6r. Men att bl\u00f6da flera veckor i str\u00e4ck, jag orkar inte med det l\u00e4ngre.<\/p>\n<p>Bilderna \u00e4r klickbara:<\/p>\n<p><center><a href=\"http:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/11\/2011.png\"><img data-attachment-id=\"2130\" data-permalink=\"https:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/index.php\/2012\/11\/10\/hormone\/attachment\/2011\/\" data-orig-file=\"https:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/11\/2011.png\" data-orig-size=\"600,440\" data-comments-opened=\"1\" data-image-meta=\"{&quot;aperture&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;credit&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;camera&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;caption&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;created_timestamp&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;copyright&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;focal_length&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;iso&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;shutter_speed&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;orientation&quot;:&quot;0&quot;}\" data-image-title=\"2011\" data-image-description=\"\" data-medium-file=\"https:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/11\/2011-300x220.png\" data-large-file=\"https:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/11\/2011.png\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"http:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/11\/2011-300x220.png\" alt=\"\" title=\"2011\" width=\"300\" height=\"220\" class=\"alignnone size-medium wp-image-2130\" srcset=\"https:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/11\/2011-300x220.png 300w, https:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/11\/2011.png 600w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/>  <\/a><a href=\"http:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/11\/2012.png\"><img data-attachment-id=\"2131\" data-permalink=\"https:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/index.php\/2012\/11\/10\/hormone\/attachment\/2012\/\" data-orig-file=\"https:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/11\/2012.png\" data-orig-size=\"600,438\" data-comments-opened=\"1\" data-image-meta=\"{&quot;aperture&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;credit&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;camera&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;caption&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;created_timestamp&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;copyright&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;focal_length&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;iso&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;shutter_speed&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;&quot;}\" data-image-title=\"2012\" data-image-description=\"\" data-medium-file=\"https:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/11\/2012-300x219.png\" data-large-file=\"https:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/11\/2012.png\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"http:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/11\/2012-300x219.png\" alt=\"\" title=\"2012\" width=\"300\" height=\"219\" class=\"alignnone size-medium wp-image-2131\" srcset=\"https:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/11\/2012-300x219.png 300w, https:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/11\/2012.png 600w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a><\/center><\/p>\n<div class=\"sharedaddy sd-sharing-enabled\"><div class=\"robots-nocontent sd-block sd-social sd-social-icon sd-sharing\"><h3 class=\"sd-title\">Dela:<\/h3><div class=\"sd-content\"><ul><li class=\"share-twitter\"><a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" data-shared=\"sharing-twitter-2129\" class=\"share-twitter sd-button share-icon no-text\" href=\"https:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/index.php\/2012\/11\/10\/hormone\/?share=twitter\" target=\"_blank\" title=\"Klicka f\u00f6r att dela p\u00e5 Twitter\"><span><\/span><span class=\"sharing-screen-reader-text\">Klicka f\u00f6r att dela p\u00e5 Twitter (\u00d6ppnas i ett nytt f\u00f6nster)<\/span><\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-print\"><a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" data-shared=\"\" class=\"share-print sd-button share-icon no-text\" href=\"https:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/index.php\/2012\/11\/10\/hormone\/\" target=\"_blank\" title=\"Klicka f\u00f6r utskrift\"><span><\/span><span class=\"sharing-screen-reader-text\">Klicka f\u00f6r utskrift (\u00d6ppnas i ett nytt f\u00f6nster)<\/span><\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-pinterest\"><a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" data-shared=\"sharing-pinterest-2129\" class=\"share-pinterest sd-button share-icon no-text\" href=\"https:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/index.php\/2012\/11\/10\/hormone\/?share=pinterest\" target=\"_blank\" title=\"Klicka f\u00f6r att dela till Pinterest\"><span><\/span><span class=\"sharing-screen-reader-text\">Klicka f\u00f6r att dela till Pinterest (\u00d6ppnas i ett nytt f\u00f6nster)<\/span><\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-end\"><\/li><\/ul><\/div><\/div><\/div>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p class=\"excerpt\">Ig\u00e5r p\u00e5 jobbet fick jag h\u00f6ra ett samtal mellan narkospersonalen p\u00e5 en sal, jag kom in mitt i s\u00e5 jag vet inte hur det b\u00f6rjade. 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