{"id":2244,"date":"2012-12-24T22:16:33","date_gmt":"2012-12-24T21:16:33","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/?p=2244"},"modified":"2012-12-24T22:20:54","modified_gmt":"2012-12-24T21:20:54","slug":"jobbigaste-julklappen","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/index.php\/2012\/12\/24\/jobbigaste-julklappen\/","title":{"rendered":"Jobbigaste julklappen"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/12\/20121224-221626.jpg\"><img class=\"alignnone size-full\" alt=\"20121224-221626.jpg\" src=\"http:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/12\/20121224-221626.jpg\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Det saknas n\u00e5got bredvid min styvmors namn. Det saknas ett &#8221;pappa&#8221;. T\u00e5rarna rann n\u00e4r jag \u00f6ppnade&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Min styvmor var inte hos min syster idag eftersom hon var hemma hos en av sina d\u00f6ttrar i \u00d6rebro, hon hade varit \u00f6ver med julklapp\/present ig\u00e5r. Den som pappa pratade om p\u00e5 min f\u00f6delsedagsh\u00e4lsning som han l\u00e4mnade p\u00e5 mitt mobilsvar f\u00f6r tio dagar sen.<\/p>\n<p>S\u00e5 sv\u00e5rt att f\u00f6rst\u00e5, han fanns f\u00f6r tio dagar sen. Han fanns d\u00e5. Han levde. Nu g\u00f6r han inte det.<\/p>\n<p>N\u00e4r ska jag f\u00f6rst\u00e5 det?<\/p>\n<div class=\"sharedaddy sd-sharing-enabled\"><div class=\"robots-nocontent sd-block sd-social sd-social-icon sd-sharing\"><h3 class=\"sd-title\">Dela:<\/h3><div class=\"sd-content\"><ul><li class=\"share-twitter\"><a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" data-shared=\"sharing-twitter-2244\" class=\"share-twitter sd-button share-icon no-text\" href=\"http:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/index.php\/2012\/12\/24\/jobbigaste-julklappen\/?share=twitter\" target=\"_blank\" title=\"Klicka f\u00f6r att dela p\u00e5 Twitter\"><span><\/span><span class=\"sharing-screen-reader-text\">Klicka f\u00f6r att dela p\u00e5 Twitter (\u00d6ppnas i ett nytt f\u00f6nster)<\/span><\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-print\"><a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" data-shared=\"\" class=\"share-print sd-button share-icon no-text\" href=\"http:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/index.php\/2012\/12\/24\/jobbigaste-julklappen\/\" target=\"_blank\" title=\"Klicka f\u00f6r utskrift\"><span><\/span><span class=\"sharing-screen-reader-text\">Klicka f\u00f6r utskrift (\u00d6ppnas i ett nytt f\u00f6nster)<\/span><\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-pinterest\"><a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" data-shared=\"sharing-pinterest-2244\" class=\"share-pinterest sd-button share-icon no-text\" href=\"http:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/index.php\/2012\/12\/24\/jobbigaste-julklappen\/?share=pinterest\" target=\"_blank\" title=\"Klicka f\u00f6r att dela till Pinterest\"><span><\/span><span class=\"sharing-screen-reader-text\">Klicka f\u00f6r att dela till Pinterest (\u00d6ppnas i ett nytt f\u00f6nster)<\/span><\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-end\"><\/li><\/ul><\/div><\/div><\/div>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p class=\"excerpt\">Det saknas n\u00e5got bredvid min styvmors namn. Det saknas ett &#8221;pappa&#8221;. T\u00e5rarna rann n\u00e4r jag \u00f6ppnade&#8230; Min styvmor var inte hos min syster idag eftersom hon var hemma hos en av sina d\u00f6ttrar i \u00d6rebro, hon hade varit \u00f6ver med julklapp\/present ig\u00e5r. Den som pappa pratade om p\u00e5 min f\u00f6delsedagsh\u00e4lsning som han l\u00e4mnade p\u00e5 mitt mobilsvar f\u00f6r tio dagar sen.&hellip; <a href=\"http:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/index.php\/2012\/12\/24\/jobbigaste-julklappen\/\">Read more &rarr;<\/a><\/p>\n<div class=\"sharedaddy sd-sharing-enabled\"><div class=\"robots-nocontent sd-block sd-social sd-social-icon sd-sharing\"><h3 class=\"sd-title\">Dela:<\/h3><div class=\"sd-content\"><ul><li class=\"share-twitter\"><a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" data-shared=\"sharing-twitter-2244\" class=\"share-twitter sd-button share-icon no-text\" href=\"http:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/index.php\/2012\/12\/24\/jobbigaste-julklappen\/?share=twitter\" target=\"_blank\" title=\"Klicka f\u00f6r att dela p\u00e5 Twitter\"><span><\/span><span class=\"sharing-screen-reader-text\">Klicka f\u00f6r att dela p\u00e5 Twitter (\u00d6ppnas i ett nytt f\u00f6nster)<\/span><\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-print\"><a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" data-shared=\"\" class=\"share-print sd-button share-icon no-text\" href=\"http:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/index.php\/2012\/12\/24\/jobbigaste-julklappen\/\" target=\"_blank\" title=\"Klicka f\u00f6r utskrift\"><span><\/span><span class=\"sharing-screen-reader-text\">Klicka f\u00f6r utskrift (\u00d6ppnas i ett nytt f\u00f6nster)<\/span><\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-pinterest\"><a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" data-shared=\"sharing-pinterest-2244\" class=\"share-pinterest sd-button share-icon no-text\" href=\"http:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/index.php\/2012\/12\/24\/jobbigaste-julklappen\/?share=pinterest\" target=\"_blank\" title=\"Klicka f\u00f6r att dela till Pinterest\"><span><\/span><span class=\"sharing-screen-reader-text\">Klicka f\u00f6r att dela till Pinterest (\u00d6ppnas i ett nytt f\u00f6nster)<\/span><\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-end\"><\/li><\/ul><\/div><\/div><\/div>","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"spay_email":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"Nybloggat: Jobbigaste julklappen","jetpack_is_tweetstorm":false},"categories":[1],"tags":[115,344,97,70],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p23rAr-Ac","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":2527,"url":"http:\/\/hoppfull.nu\/index.php\/2013\/02\/23\/arv-skuldkanslor-och-sant\/","url_meta":{"origin":2244,"position":0},"title":"Arv, skuldk\u00e4nslor och s\u00e5nt","date":"23 februari 2013, 23:45","format":false,"excerpt":"Sk\u00f6n och slapp l\u00f6rdag, precis som jag \u00f6nskade mig. 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